I just received your text message letting me know that you arrived in Yosemite. After almost 6 hours, it was so good to hear from you. I have not stopped thinking of you since you left and my heart aches because I miss you so much. I loved having you here and it thrills me to know that you liked my home. I loved being with you, having you near me and seeing you every day. Getting to know each other on a deeper level by experiencing our natural personalities intensified how I already felt about you. When you left, you took a piece of me with you and I am feeling the emptiness now that you are gone. Remembering our time together is a small consolation.
Wednesday Aug. 26
Waiting for your arrival all day was grueling. …show more content…
From the moment I woke up, I was aware that it was our last day together. I felt nervous and I was overly sensitive about everything. When we greeted each other in the morning, I immediately felt as if something was wrong and I hoped desperately that we had not lost the beautiful bond between us. But then, a few hours later, you sent me a text in the car thanking me for the “beautiful day I ordered.” Pasquale, you have no idea how much I needed that message. I yearned for you all morning and after hearing from you, I felt as if the weight of the world had been lifted from my shoulders. The rest of the day was much brighter. I loved discovering at Pier 39 that (like mine) your favorite color is red. Our crab and sourdough-bread picnic in the park overlooking Alcatraz was great fun. It was so sweet of you to speak with my sister on the phone while we were awaiting our turn to ride the cable car. I loved watching you as you spoke to her. I felt as if you had already met. (Thank you for being so spontaneous.) And, I will never forget riding the cable car with you. Standing only inches away, Pasquale I was so physically attracted to you that it was difficult to resist the urge to lean into you. Your natural scent is intoxicating to me. My favorite moment on this day was when we were at the Golden Gate Bridge lookout for the second time. You caught me by surprise when you told me that I was …show more content…
I want to feel what it is telling me. I wanted to feel every message from my heart and soul and I want to hear their message loud and clear.
Pasquale, I love you. I love you from the bottom of my heart. I love you completely. I love you with my whole being and with everything that I have. I know that I do because this is the first time that I let love (instead of need) direct my course. It is the first time that I feel worthy of saying “I love you” and mean it as a gift and a compliment, without needing to hear those words in return. I hope it makes you happy to know that some one like me loves you to her core. I love you! I love you so much I feel like it can burry me